One thing I've noticed in all these years is how we all hold on to the past. As we move on with life we keep thinking about the things we could have been, the things we could have done, but mostly the things we shouldn't have done or the things that shouldn't have happened. Even if we're content with life (LOL, sure!) each and everyone of us come to a point where we're all forced to think "Life would be a lot better if..."
Most popular questions in interviews go like: "What is that one thing in your life that you wish had never happened?" or "What's your biggest regret?" I mean look at all those facebook pages. "I wish life had an UNDO button"? Seriously?
Until I while ago, I felt the same. But then I had an epiphany (sorta). I was thinking about all the things that I would 'undo' if possible. The list was miserably long! I mean I am clumsy, and stupid, and I'm pretty much hopeless when it comes to making decisions. As I thought more about what else could come on that list, I realized that most of the things I wanted to undo had some pretty important and valuable memories attached to them. It was betrayal from the people I thought were mine that brought me to people I call friends today. That taste of loss on a heaped helping of wins made me realize that I'm not invincible. That wrong turn made me see how odd yet unique the road on the other side is. As I drifted apart from people, I became closer to those who matter. Where the problem wasn't in my control, I despaired, but came out stronger than ever. The point is that it passed and I came out of it. If I am happy today, it certainly means that I'm stronger than before. If I'm going through a hard time, a part of me knows that I'll come out of it someday just like I did earlier.
That thought just changed the course my mind had taken. I was now thinking of all the moments in my life that I would want to relive. The the list turned out to be longer than the first one. Seemed like I wanted to relive almost my entire life! (But of course it wasn't my entire life - I exagerate.) It reminded me that I had problems during the moments I wanted to relive, but there still were reasons I wanted to relive them. Made me realize that if I survived then, I'll survive now too.
No matter what we say, we can't completely let go off the past. But if we're gonna drift away to the past so much, might as well cherish the good parts. I am still clumsy and I still regret some of the decisions I made. But I don't want an undo button. I'd rather have a REDO button.
Most popular questions in interviews go like: "What is that one thing in your life that you wish had never happened?" or "What's your biggest regret?" I mean look at all those facebook pages. "I wish life had an UNDO button"? Seriously?
Until I while ago, I felt the same. But then I had an epiphany (sorta). I was thinking about all the things that I would 'undo' if possible. The list was miserably long! I mean I am clumsy, and stupid, and I'm pretty much hopeless when it comes to making decisions. As I thought more about what else could come on that list, I realized that most of the things I wanted to undo had some pretty important and valuable memories attached to them. It was betrayal from the people I thought were mine that brought me to people I call friends today. That taste of loss on a heaped helping of wins made me realize that I'm not invincible. That wrong turn made me see how odd yet unique the road on the other side is. As I drifted apart from people, I became closer to those who matter. Where the problem wasn't in my control, I despaired, but came out stronger than ever. The point is that it passed and I came out of it. If I am happy today, it certainly means that I'm stronger than before. If I'm going through a hard time, a part of me knows that I'll come out of it someday just like I did earlier.
That thought just changed the course my mind had taken. I was now thinking of all the moments in my life that I would want to relive. The the list turned out to be longer than the first one. Seemed like I wanted to relive almost my entire life! (But of course it wasn't my entire life - I exagerate.) It reminded me that I had problems during the moments I wanted to relive, but there still were reasons I wanted to relive them. Made me realize that if I survived then, I'll survive now too.
No matter what we say, we can't completely let go off the past. But if we're gonna drift away to the past so much, might as well cherish the good parts. I am still clumsy and I still regret some of the decisions I made. But I don't want an undo button. I'd rather have a REDO button.
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